Princess Donna runs two of Kink.com’s sexiest sites.  The newest is Public Disgrace (PublicDisgrace.com), but the most famous is the legendary Fucking Machines (FuckingMachines.com).  My friend, Coco, who can be found on FetLife.com, recently did her first shoot for Fucking Machines (and Kink.com).  I invited her to write about her virgin Kink.com shoot, and here is what she submitted.  I think it’s really unique and intimate to read her account of the day:

My call time was 11:45 at the Kink Armory. It was about 1am and I was starting to get a little nervous. I tried to sleep and tossed and turned for about a half hour or more. I woke up at about 7:45 and I just kinda laid there, thinking “maybe if I lay here I won’t have to go” I was super nervous. After all this was my first real porn shoot. So I got up and got in the shower. I felt pretty good. I was trying not to think about it, I kept repeating to myself “just get through this and everything will be fine, one thing at a time.” I had specific instructions to only worry about doing my hair and that my make-up would be done for me at the Armory. I left the house after only being able to eat a little bit of food. I tend to get anxiety before shoots but I held down a little bit of food before I shoved off for the drive.

When I arrived at the armory I was greeted by the talent coordinator. He set me up to fill out some paperwork. At this point I was wishing I had ate some more food cuz I was feeling empty and shaky. Since the office I was in was filled with computers, I shrugged off my nerves. I met a couple of nice girls who were shooting that day as well and asked me who I was shooting for, one was Kylie Ireland, she was SO sweet and made me feel super comfortable. She told me that FM (as they refer to it) was the easiest and most fun of all the websites to work for. This put me at ease. TC the director came down to introduce himself to me and told me to meet him upstairs when I was finished. After some inspiring words I went up stairs to make-up. Isis Love the girl that pretty much got me this gig, was there to give me a thumbs up and wish me good luck. This made me even MORE nervous. I tried to calm myself down. There was a girl was in the middle of getting her make-up done and so I sat in the little lunch/waiting room. TC came in and asked me how I was feeling and if I had any questions. I started eating as he explained what would happen. He asked what I was nervous about. I said “all of the people that are going to be in the room, the more, the more nerve-wrecking” He mentioned there would be 4-5 people in the room. That must have gotten a surprised look out of me and he said, “If at any time you want to stop then we will stop and go get a beer. No harm, no foul and we’ll still pay ya.” That was relaxing. Haha. While the make-up artist was doing the other girls face, she told me I should “freshen up” I looked at her perplexed and after about 2 seconds I realized she was talking about douching. I have only douched a couple times before so I wandered my way into the bathroom. MY GOD! There was soooo much girl stuff in that bathroom, from hair ties, to douches to self enema thingys and like 4 different kinds of baby wipes and deodorants and razors, shampoos and just EVERYTHING you could think of that girls would need. So I did my deed.

When I got back the wardrobe stylist came in and showed me my outfit. It was very cute. When I hopped into the make-up chair, the make-up artist was telling me about how she had been down in the basement where they keep the machines and had tried out a few. She said that fucking machines was all about what you like and how you feel and it was the least scary of them all, she said I wouldn’t have to worry. My thinking was that it would be better if I was with someone because then all the pressure wouldn’t be on only me to perform! Right?! I was mostly scared that I wouldn’t be able to orgasm. I mean sure I’ve masturbated in front of a boy and been to swingers clubs and been topped in public but to me it seemed like a much bigger hurdle. The other girl who had just finished with make-up was asking me who I was shooting for. Her name was Natalie Minx and she told me she had never shot for FM but for another company that had different machines. She said that I’d never have more fun. She seemed genuinely jealous that I was getting to play with the machines and she wasn’t. This made me more comfortable.

After I got my make up done, I walked over to the room I’d be shooting in. The room was pretty small with big bright lights in it. It was supposed to look like a library in a house or school I guess. I recognized one of the couches from a scene that Annie Cruz had just did for FM. I was kinda excited when I saw it. I kept thinking “I am going to masturbate on the same couch as all the other great pornstars before me!” haha. I am so silly. TC must have told the other people on the set to scram because it ended up being me, TC, the camera man and the production assistant. Not so bad. The first machine didn’t look too scary. Let me elaborate that there were a LOT of machines in the room and HUGEEEEEEEEEE dildo’s that I swear a whale would have swam away from. Haha. The dildo was medium sized, thank god for having a BIG cocked lover. HAHA! They put the condom on it and we were ready to go. I did a interview about 5-10 minutes long. I was sorta shaking the whole time. TC did the interview and said not to worry if I messed up cuz they would end up editing stuff out. I have to say, this was probably the most nerve-wrecking part cuz I had NO clue what to say. He was asking why I wanted to do FM and what made me get into bondage and what types of stuff I liked. I felt like I kept saying “uh I dunno” a lot. After the interview, they gave me instructions on what to do for the first 20-30 minutes. Pretty much I was to slowly undress [not stripper style] then after I was naked, sit down and use the magic wand [vibrator] until I felt I was warmed up enough to get on the 1st. machine appropriately named “The MiniMite”. If the camera man whispered “hold” I was to hold the position I was in, so he could get into a different position to film it. I could look into the camera if I wanted to but mostly just enjoy myself. So after that it was go time. I was so shy and nervous that my pussy wasn’t going to get wet and I kept thinking that everyone in the room was looking at me [which of course they were] but I was trying to relax myself in my head. After a few minutes I felt ready so, I moved to the MiniMite. It felt pretty good so I turned it up. I was pretty quiet trying to work things out in my own head. It was hard not to think about everyone around me. It kinda reminded me of the first time I’d ever been to Power Exchange in San Francisco. The guy I went there with was trying to make out with me and touch me while I was looking at all the people staring at us instead of trying to only focus on what was happening in front of me.

30-45 minutes into it TC decided to cut. In between each machine change, we would have lighting being moved around and some downtime. They were all soooooo nice. They would ask me if I was hungry or thirsty or if I needed anything. I had to wipe off the lube between takes so it wasn’t dribbling all over the place. So the second machine was named “The Hatchet” I was going to be pile driver with my ass up on the edge of the couch as my back was on the sitting part of the couch and the machine was pointed down. I had to sit there or rather pose there while they tried to figure out where to point the machine. While this was all going on, I took it upon myself to talk to them and get to know everyone. I asked them if they liked what they did, and how old they were and just chit chatted as the camera guy was moving around the equipment. They told me I could wear a robe in between takes but I was pretty much starting to feel back to my normal kinky self … almost. I layed there with my ass to the air looking at the ceiling thinking “I really would enjoy doing this everyday” and I thought about how until 2007 I’d been pretty much in the closet about what a freak I was, and here I was exploiting it just a short year later. I felt proud. Proud that I was strong enough to even try something like this. TC broke my concentration and told me that pile-driver wasn’t going to work out so I was going to do doggy style on the floor. In my cute innocent voice I said “Can we use a bigger dildo” this got a HUGE smile out of TC and he said “I was hoping you’d say that! Good girl”. Which of course made me beam. I guess that’s the submissive in me that likes being patted on the head and told I’m doing as I should.

So, after “The Hatchet” was set up they asked me to put the dildo all the way in so that I would know how far out it would go once it was in me. Then they TRIED to teach me how to turn it on. Of course once the scene started and we were rolling for a few minutes, I couldn’t get the fucker to start. We kept having to cut to try to show me how to turn it on. I guess it was the nerves? Haha either way I was laughing nervously every time. Finally I got it to start. It felt pretty good. It was kinda awkward at first but TC motioned for me to start playing with my clit, and it started to really make me hot. The thing is, I was on my knees and face down on the carpet and the room was filled with these 2 SUPER HUGE lights, and since we were rolling and couldn’t have background noise, we had to keep the fan off. It was SOOOOOO hot, I was sweating all over the place. I kept worrying about my make up and again couldn’t put my whole focus into it but I ALMOST came like 2 times but I didn’t make it all the way. So after what seemed like an hour of hardcore pussy ramming, TC asked me to fake, so I did. [keep that to yourselves!] It was pretty real though! Not to say I’m an expert faker but I know what I’m doing when I have to fake. Haha. My pussy as this point was being punished. So after that, we took a short break and I could feel my pussy swelling. I had not had sex in about a month and a half so you can imagine. They even had to double bag the dildos because my pussy was so tight it kept breaking the condoms. At one point I went to use the bathroom and I checked around in there and I found a piece of condom. Don’t worry after that I checked thoroughly after that to make sure no men went missing in there. Haha.

The next scene was the satisfyher. Which of course, in dirty girl fashion I asked for a bigger dildo. Haha. What?! I can’t help I’m a size queen! I was starting to worry if I’d have a real orgasm or if I’d be too nervous and they would never invite me back for seconds because I couldn’t have one on film for them. I think it’s good that had those first 2 machines because at this point I was pretty comfortable with everyone and I was feeling more like Coco then I was anyone else. I wanted to please everyone in the room by having the bomb orgasms. Haha. So the satisfyher was sitting straight up and TC asked me to lean my hands on the couch and basically have both knees bent onto it, and when I got tired I could put one leg down. I mean, I guess I could have came better prepared by working out 3 times a week but honestly, I haven’t worked out in FOR-EV-ER and once I got on the satisfyher, my legs were shaking after like 2 seconds. I held out for as long as I could cuz I wanted to look like a badass but I mean it really was only five minutes or less. I started playing with my clit right away and I was almost positive I was going to come in the very beginning. I was more vocal during this machine then the previous. The awesome thing about the machines is they don’t back down or slow up or have stamina problems. Ha! I guess that is also the worst thing about them! There is no one that is going to stop when you have had too much. My body at this point was shaking all over the place and I could feel my throat drying out from all the moaning I was doing. After a about 10 minutes I turned the machine off when TC asked if I could come from that position. I said no and that I’d like to try on my back. So I was fixed on my back with my legs over the arm of the couch and the Satisfyher on it’s side. I was feeling SO ready to come and SO worked at this point I was excited and nervous. After getting warmed up quickly I just layed there and let it fuck me and took it all in. It was pretty fucking rad. Since I come faster from clitoral stimulation we decided to pull the satisfyher out and let it hit me on the clit instead of being inside me. TC manned the controls and we let her fly at 1800stokes per minute. All hell broke loose. There was no man in the world that would have stopped me from my orgasm at that point. I was sweating and shaking and moaning and right when I was in the middle of my orgasm I BROKE THE MACHINE. It just BUSTED. I have no clue I wasn’t watching it all I know is I came then I looked down and realized it was broke. OOPS!

After that I was ready for another orgasm and I was running around all energized and excited because everyone was saying how sweet it was that I broke the machine with my vagina. I felt pretty cool after that like a rockstar. So after that we went right into our next scene which was me with “The Drilldo” which was a drill with a dildo on the end and the magic wand taped up on top of it. We were trying it out and seeing how it would work. The dildo was smaller then the ones I was using before because it had to leave room for the wand on my clit. TC wanted us to waste no time in getting to the scene since he knew I was worked up and ready for another O. We first tried it out where I was holding the drilldo, which worked for like 4 minutes or less. The drill was WAY too heavy and patting my head and rubbing my belly has never been a talent of mine. So we had it so that TC was holding the drilldo. This worked for about 5 minutes when all of the sudden the magic wand pretty much ceased to exist. Having a wonderpussy is amazing! I managed to break 2 machines in 1 day. They sent Aaron the p.a. to go down to the dungeon and fetch another magic wand. Meanwhile me and TC were playing with the drilldo in my pussy to keep me “fluffed” up. Like magic, moments later he came back with sweating and panting, apparently the dungeon was at the bottom floor and we were near the top. He happily handed over the new magic wand. TC assumed his position manning the drill and I had the vibrator. I was loose and ready. It was INTENSE. I mean getting fucked and playing with my clit usually gets me off, but this was fucking ridiculous. Every muscle in my legs and arms started shivering and aching and screaming MORE MORE MORE. It was almost too much. I was definitely overwhelmed. It didn’t take too long after that to send me into a screaming orgasm. And when I say screaming, I mean SCREAMING. I think I cussed more then anything. “oh FUCK” seemed to be the favorite of the day. I got fucked into a jerking moaning completely earth shaking orgasm. You know the kind that make you wanna write it down because you don’t want to forget that moment EVER. Ya that. I even squirted. I got some on the directors face. I was watching his face as he was watching my pussy and the look of amazement when I squirted made me feel even better.

After I stopped the cameras kept rolling and I giggled hard. So hard. It was so fucking good. I don’t think this is even doing it justice my clit was screaming FUCK YA! Right after. If that is any indication. So then after my post reaction TC says “I didn’t know you could squirt!” I replied “I didn’t want extra pressure so I kept it to myself in case I wasn’t able to perform”. I was really excited to break 2 machines and squirt on my orgasm. The last order of business is to do the final interview after everything was said and done. It was cool. I was gushing about how great of a shoot it was and TC asked if I would come back. I was practically salivating to do it all over again. After the shoot I went and showered and just relaxed. I had the rest of my lunch I was too nervous to finish. TC told me to go downstairs to get paid whenever I was ready. I saw Isis love for a few minutes and she said “I know you did great” after that I checked my texts and I had one from my best friend who gave me some awesome encouraging words that I missed before my shoot but was so excited to see. I called him immediately to tell him all about it. He was stoked for me.

After I got my paycheck, I went to my car and sat there and screamed. Screamed from how fucking cool it is to orgasm for a living. Screamed from doing something I’d never thought I’d have the balls to do. Screamed from being utterly brutalized in front of people I just met. I screamed for nothing and for everything.

And that is all I have to say about that. Take it how you want to. I know how I took it. HARD FAST and WITH EVERYTHING I HAVE.

xo-

Coco.